If you read my post "emotional rock bottom" you will know I was not in a good/safe/sane place for a few weeks.
I am doing... better. Not great but better. And sometimes that's all we can hope for. It's hard to remember feelings won't last forever when you can't imagine ever being happy again. The best you can do is just keep moving and trying to get better.
Today I complete all the paperwork, drug test, and physicals I need to be cleared for my volunteer work at PR. I am so excited about this opportunity. I also have a meeting with a recovery POWERHOUSE next week to discuss some options for working together. I feel like things are looking up again. For right now I will keep trying to stay positive and be grateful for the things I have in my life right now.
- The RAPID (yay free bus rides)
- JC, BR, RC, KS, RR, and AW for supporting me and loving me through all my bull shit.
- Security blankets (yes I still have one at 32)
- Science and modern medicine
I hope you are all doing your best to make it out of this hell of a winter we have been stuck in. Spring is near and the sun will shine soon.
love you/be safe
(I'll leave you a poem I wrote about my weeks of emotional rock bottom.)